Blackest Eyes

I got wiring loose inside my head
I got books that I never ever read
I got secrets in my garden shed
I got a scar where all my urges bled
I got people underneath my bed
I got a place where all my dreams are dead
Swim with me into your blackest eyes
[...]
I'm feeling something taking over me

porcupine tree - blackest eyes

les devoirs pour demain (30 octobre)

17

17 seconds of compassion
17 seconds of peace
17 seconds to remember love is the energy behind which all is created
17 seconds to remember all that is good
17 seconds to forget all your hurt and pain
17 seconds of faith
17 seconds to trust you again
17 seconds of radiance
17 seconds to send a prayer up
17 seconds is all you really need

-Billy Corgan

La frase del día IV

"Los idiotas... Opera prima de Lars Von Trier consolida el género filmográfico: Porno de Autor". Frase críptica que se leía en las criticas a la mitad de los noventas..."-mija dixit*

*Remembranza de una vieja charla entre un pornógrafo y su consiglieri acerca del creciente género en la reciente charla entre dos "cinéfilos" desconcertados por la tarde lluviosa de un triste sábado desmañanado.

(I'm) Not (T)here

Take me away...Take me away...
Take me away... I might as well be yours...
Take away... I might as well be ...
away... I might be our ...
Take me ... I might ...
a/e away... Take me a ...
Take me ... I might as well ...
Take way... I might be our ...
me away... I might as well be your ...
Take me ... I might be you ...
away…

Away

• Gone, departed.

• from this or that place away>

Not present, outside, out of existence; fade away, so as to be removed or gotten rid of-,

not here; besides, moreover; margins, en marge, elsewhere, d’ailleurs, être ~, to be miles away.

to get ~ from it all...

NOTE:
away often appears after a verb in English to show that an action is continuous or intense. If away does not change the basic meaning of the verb only the verb is translated.

“…But I'm not there, I'm gone.”

closure

clo·sure

• Pronunciation: \ˈklō-zhər\
• Function: noun
• Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French, from Latin clausura, from clausus, past participle of claudere to close — more at close
• Date: 14th century

1 archaic : means of enclosing : enclosure
2 : an act of closing : the condition of being closed <closure of the eyelids> closures>
3 : something that closes closure>
4 [translation of French clôture] : cloture
5 : the property that a number system or a set has when it is mathematically closed under an operation
6 : a set that consists of a given set together with all the limit points of that set
7 : an often comforting or satisfying sense of finality closure>; also : something (as a satisfying ending) that provides such a sense
Definition from the Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary

closure
	1. To attempt to 'move on' following the termination of a relationship with another individual. 2. When used in a sentence, insinuates that the individual using the word is the same individual who was the target of the 'break-up'. 3. A word used by overly-emotional, self-centered 'drama queens' (mostly women and gay men). 4. Individuals using this word generally will utter the word 'chapter' during their often one-sided conversations. 5. A word created during the 90's which was borne out of individuals unable to cope with relationship failure. 6. Individuals using this word insinuate that the more stable party is responsible for all of the 'closured' individual's problems, as well as the War in Iraq, airbag safety issues, the Democratic National Convention, dustless chalk, nipples on men, PMS, and bad-hair days. Betsy: So whadda' you think, Donna? Donna: Well, you gotta' let me read the damn thing! Betsy: Okay, okay... sorry! Donna: (Reads out loud) Dear Betsy, It has been four long months and I can no longer be party to this relationship. Yes, you do have the finest body I've ever seen, and as you have repeatedly told me, no one gives better head. I understand our college football and baseball teams can confirm this as well. Honestly, the fact that you have slept with everyone in the faculty is not the problem I'm having. The problem is your hygiene. Most women clean themselves off after sex... the corners of the mouth, the pearl necklace... and, umm, you know what I mean. If you at least brushed your teeth each day, your dentist wouldn't have to contend with the variety of pubic hair in your mouth. I'm sorry, Betsy, but I need a woman with standards... any kind of standards. Just not you. You suck, Dave Betsy: Well?? What do you think? Donna: Well, you do need to brush. That's gross. Betsy: I NEED CLOSURE! Donna: No, you need a life, you self-centered drama queen! Betsy: Oh! Another chapter in my life ends! Donna: Don't start with me, bitch.
2.	closure
	the final step in the grieving process; figurative 'scar tissue' After all these years of crying over Tim, i still havent found closure.
3.	closure
	when you rid yo self of problems. I've finally found closure!

4.	closure
	So I took this chick's new webcam and I strangled her with it. Then I peed in her butt and stapled it shut. I got closure by acting out the above definition.

Definition from the Urban Dictionary Online

Creo que no tengo muchas palabras, aunque en realidad lo que me sucede sea precisamente lo contrario, tengo muchas palabras atoradas en la garganta...

No hace falta criticar al gobierno federal y a sus grandilocuentes representantes, es burdo, obvio y no me interesa. Tampoco intentare desmenuzar las infinitas y complejas redes que urden las estructuras de poder, así como sus distintas contradicciones y engaños, no podría. Sin embargo lo que puedo hacer es señalar el absurdo, o debería decir cinismo, desplegado frente al edificio de la Procuraduría General de la República en el Estado de Baja California, defendida por supuesto por dos soldados de uniforme con camuflaje (no se porque), con sus respectivas ametralladoras frente a la puerta, al costado del curioso letrero:

"PROHIBIDO SEMBRAR EL TERROR"

ven? no hay palabras...






post-scriptum
Todavía recuerdo el rostro del militar gritándome frente al detector de metales:"estamos para su servicio y protección" mientras yo observaba de reojo la miradas y escuchaba los murmullos a mis espaldas. Apreté mi mandíbula lo mas que pude y baje la mirada... (soy un idiota, pensé) Finalmente, después de haber depositado mis propiedades en la bandeja (botas, cinturón, etc.) remató con el mismo volumen y tono en su voz "muchas gracias señor, es usted muy amable", pero bueno... yo me lo busqué...

Mau el Mojado (sin albur)

o las hazañas de violencia sin límite de un ilegal indomable...

Reflexiones de un joven "viajero" (y carnívoro)

o carne asada is not a crime...

para quien todavía lea este blog, estuve pensando durante mi breve estancia en tijuana en cierto, digamos, argumento o tal vez mas bien sea un sofisma; el cual fue urdido a partir de la concepción que existe del norte del país reflejada en una frase(que aparentemente nadie de mis contactos recuerda), curiosamente atribuída al señor José Vasconcelos, sin mas:

Premisa uno.
se dice por ahí, y lo pueden constatar en google si no me cree, que al adentrarse uno al norte del país "se acaba la cultura y empieza la carne asada". [vox populi]

Premisa dos.
por otro lado, en la séptima tesis sobre filosofía de la historia Walter Benjamin afirma, después de una argumentación sublime que no existe documento de cultura que no sea, a la vez, un documento de barbarie...

Conclusión
¿será acaso que la condición de posibilidad de la no-violencia, se daría sólo a partir de la ausencia de la cultura, esto es, donde sólo hay carne asada? (ha! suck on that you filthy vegans!)

Corolario
pues claro no? la carne asada (de preferencia con chelas) hace a todos felices y no daría motivo alguno por el cual pelear... aunque, por otro lado están esas ideas locas de que comer carne hace agresiva a la gente, lo cual concuerda con el reciente aumento de criminalidad de la violencia y narcotráfico en el norte, es decir: no tiene nada que ver con la campaña de calderón contra el narcotráfico en diversas zonas del país, si... eso lo explica todo... no?